"Tourniquet"

This is a letter from a person who was dealing with her sexual abuse as a teen. She used "Tourniquet" to help her feel and to deal with her anger toward God. 

Letter to God

I still can’t rely on my feelings. I hurt too much. My love and innocents was betrayed. Who am I? What am I? Were you there? Why didn’t you stop him? I cried to you, but you didn’t answer me? I needed you. To survive I had to block out my feelings. I needed to escape. I thought you loved me? Why? Why me? I'm so angry... homicidal... What do I do? Will I ever heal? My heart is broken into pieces. Will I ever heal my hatred toward you? I thought you were my Father? 

I feel so dirty. Cleanse me... Renew me... I have nobody to turn to... I feel like dieing.... I feel so powerless... give me strength...

~ Michael. Phdc, MS, Certified Life Strategy Coach