Broken Dreams

Penelope's Journal through Heart Break

I've been with my boyfriend for 6 years…and we just can’t make it work. These lyrics describe exactly how I feel… 

Because I'm broken when I'm lonesome …And I don't feel right when you're gone away…You've gone away; you don't feel me here anymore.

I’m so depressed. I lost trust and my ability to put hope in my future. I’m holding on to him…. I can’t accept it… It’s not over…. I don’t feel right…come back.

I tried so hard and I gave the relationship everything I had… I gave him my all and I lost myself in the process.  My fears overcame me… I’m drowning in suspicion… Will I ever break free? Is there a way out of this hell I’m in? I can’t breathe… I’m suffocating. Come back….


What about our dreams? What about our hopes and plans for a family? It's all shattered... 


I'm hearting myself trying to put this back together... should I leave it broken... 

Billy....

How will my heart heal when it knows only you…. You can’t take my pain away… are you in pain,,, I love you and I always will … I don’t feel right when you’re gone away….My love my angel give me your pain…. I miss you….

I’m so open I’m bleeding… dying inside…. God help me….

I want to breathe again.... I need to let go of these dreams... 

Dear God....

Please give me the strength to let go, help me to love again, dream again... I know this to shall pass... See me through... Fill the voids in my heart.... Help me not to focus on my disappointments... Give me the courage I need to feel and grieve so I can find out what will make me really happy... I know you can heal my broken heart ... but I need to give you all the pieces.... am I ready.... make me ready... Heal my shattered dreams....